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just came back from Seremban..muscles aching..u’ll know why soon enough.

28th Jan(’nin 30 man’)

Reunion dinner day..had LOTUS SOUP with noodles..that’s it.Well,only my mom and I..no need so grand.

29th Jan(’cho yat’)

went to church,got 2 angpaus..happy enough.then started our journey to Seremban..very excited.Quite jammed up(the road)..but it wasn’t as bad as I had expected.when we reached,we went straight to my cousin’s house..and they were having a ‘buffet’ there..so of cos,join in lo.hehehe..i ate KFC,curry chicken,fried wantan,and drank LOTUS SOUP.nice..after that got angpau..go to grandma’s house.

when reach po po’s house,got more angpau..my uncle increase angpau money..was happy cos it means that he is now financially MORE stable compared to last year.

then went to another uncle’s house,got angpau,ALSO increased..5 times more than last year eh.funny.hmm i dun reli like this uncle..cos he scolds my grandma sometimes..and his children dun respect my grandma AT ALL.dunno what’s their problem.jus bcos they are rich??—one of the reasons why i hate money

after that went to an aunty’s house(if u’re wondering why so many uncle aunty,my mom has 12 siblings..)..got angpau,ALSO increased!!!wahlau..i think economy better oredi la.when we got into the car,my mom asked ‘how much aunty gave?’..EVERYTIME i get an angpau..she sure ask.and 9 out of 10 times i answer ‘i not yet check’..how to check in the house right??ish..and somemore i also dun reli mind how much..as long as they give me a red packet..hehe.if not no face la..like i so old like that,cannot get angpau.

i dun mind my mom asking..but this year,things are different.my bro isn’t here to celebrate with us.some of our relatives still pass his angpaus to my mom,but some don’t.like the uncle who gave me 5 times more than last year.my mom said i took my brother’s share.what the..huh?????my fault ar?u want me to cut the note in half?sure no problem..but then there wouldn’t be anymore value to it.it’ll jus be a piece of paper with the Agong’s face behind.haih..felt so sad when my mom said that.all my life..i’ve been feeling like my bro’s shadow.this time is no different.and my mom said i was too sensitive.

after that went to ANOTHER aunty’s house to eat dinner.we had LOTUS SOUP.i can’t remember how much i got.

then went back to 5-times-uncle’s house.watched tv with my grandma while my mom ‘caught up’ with relatives.waited till 12am.was really happy cos i could spend some time with grandma..and pamper her a little.she must think i’m an ‘angel’ compared to my cousins.

30th Jan(’cho yee’)

ANOTHER aunty of mine came to grandma’s house to pai nian.my long awaited day.i could play with the baby!hehehe..but she didnt want me to carry her!=(

after that an aunty oredi mentioned above came over with her sons..(my cousins)..and i realised that the eldest cousin looks VERY FAMILIAR..but i stilll can’t figure out who he looks like.

then went back to 5-times-uncle’s house to eat lunch.we had LOTUS SOUP.ate quite little..all also not to my taste wan.hehe.picky picky me.ANOTHER aunty came over..this aunty i’ve only met once before..when i saw her,i was like..OK!and i didn’t know what to call her..and my mom didn’t offer any assistance till it was too late and they all realised i haven’t greeted anyone.embarassing.

after they left,my mom started complaining about them.and then i knew..that lady i was so nice to actually didn’t wanna have any relationship with my fanily.she scolded my grandma last time!what the………HOW DARE SHE?????who she think she is leh??my mom said she didn’t wanna have anything to do with us last time cos she’s a GRADUATE.and i was like..OK!!again. GRADUATE SO WHAT???????I ALSO GONNA BE A GRADUATE IN 4 YEARS TIME LA BABE! I DON’T SEE ME SAYING STUFF LIKE THAT!if i wanna balas dendam for my grandma,i can go up to her and say ‘I TOOK UNDANG AND GOT 50/50 EH!U LEH???I GOT NUMBER 2 IN CLASS IN KINDERGARTEN,100 MARKS FOR MATHS IN STD 1,NO 1 IN CLASS IN STD 2,NO 1 IN CLASS IN STD 3,MANAGED TO SKIP STD 4,GOT 4A’S IN UPSR,STRAIGHT A’S IN PMR,8A’S IN SPM,93.4 TER FOR SAM,WHAT HAVE U GOT TO SAY NOW?I AM ALSO A GRADUATE WHAT…i graduated from CHIM kindergarten ,from SSP,from SRI AMAN,from SAM.u only graduate from one place,don’t talk so much la..i seriously cannot tahan ppl who are disrespectful..ESPECIALLY TO MY GRANDMA..after that i didn’t mind not greeting them.

FINALLY managed to carry my baby cousin.she’s so cute!!!!she hugged me le..hehe.and when i took her picture,she was so happy!!it was AWESOME.

at night,went to my aunty’s house to eat dinner.’CNY is all about eating’..an undeniable statement.u guessed it..we had LOTUS SOUP.then went back to 5-tims-uncle’s place..and waited for my mom till 1am.helped my younger cousins to light their firecrackers and stuff(oops..)..learned some new mandarin words..fruitful experience indeed.then went inside and fed my grandma oranges.she was supposed to eat only one..but i fed her 2.muahaha..and when she realised,i had oredi fed her the last piece of the 2nd orange.too late po po!oh it’s not that she can’t feed herself..no no.but it would be so mah fan for her to go wash her hands,so i feed her lo.felt so happy when she enjoyed the oranges so much.now i realise,no matter what,your family is the most important.i think my CNY this year taught me lots of stuff.

my grandma was saying that she likes the comfort chair in my uncle’s house.i decided on the spot that i would use my angpau money to buy it for her.but my mom wasn’t as enthusiastic about it as i was.all i wanted was to make my grandma happy and healthy.i don’t care about the money.but i guess that’s how adults are.i dun wanna be like that when i grow up.

i’m getting tired.

31st Jan(’cho sam’)

my mom woke me up to eat breakfast.we had prawns,’fatt choi’,and LOTUS SOUP(good choice).that was breakfast.lunch,we had prawn crackers,and stuff.my mom and aunty were discussing other people.there’s another word for this,but i prefer to refer to it as ‘discussing other people’.they started naming all the ‘kiam siap’ ones,all the fat ones,who gave u what,who DIDN’T give u what,did she give u back any mandarin oranges?u know..she gave me ONLY 2 AR!!so kiam siap ooo.u know..the 3 of them,all share and give ahma only RM20 ar!!!how could they!after sitting there for 10-20 minutes,i realised the second reason why i hate money so much.went to the room to listen to songs.

dinner,went to aunty’s house for STEAMBOAT..at 3sth in the afternoon.that was dinner.after that came home..fell asleep in the car.when i woke up..i remember that my fren is gonna have a dinner with his extended family today.wondered how it went.

i’m exhausted.did u manage to finish reading my CNY experience?if u did,good for you.but u weren’t there to experience it with me.unforgettable.i doubt anyone finished reading.it’s too long.should have cut it short.but i couldnt’.

hmm let’s start by talking about the weather.the weather today is HOT…and i mean really hot.when i woke up from a nap in the afternoon,i felt like i was in a sauna.it’s THAT hot.

i started the day by going jogging with Simimo..and we talked about lots of stuff..i didn’t realise how much i missed her!=) reli can’t wait for her course in Metropolitan to start,then we can go for breaks together..and at least i won’t be the only girl within my group of frens anymore.haha good good.

tonight..i’m gonna eat the ‘reunion dinner’ with my mom,just the 2 of us. if only my brother was here,then it’s really a reunion.hehe.hmm felt very ‘jealous’ when simimo is gonna have reunion dinner with all her family members…one whole big happy family.but NVM…i will have reunion dinner with a WHOLE family next time…like,10 years from now?

and anyway i’m going back to Seremban tomorrow,where my grandma and aunties and uncles and cousins are.then i can really feel the CNY celebration.oh and i can also see my baby cousin!!!

believe it or not..i already miss all my uni frens..but of cos..i miss my college frens EVEN MORE!!can’t wait for their course in Monash to start..then can go visit them.

this CNY..cannot eat ‘xia ping’ oredi…fattening..cannot drink carbonated drinks…fattening..cannot eat so much…fattening..cannot relax too much…fattening..haih….day and night…the one word that is always on my mind is …’FAT’….i promised my good good fren that i will lose 5kg in one month..which means i need to lose 4 more kg!!i need motivation..muahaha..4 more kg before 14th february..guess what day is that..what a coincidence

had only 2 classes today..Fluid Mechanics and Math1. Math..as usual,was terrible.I can’t believe how unconsiderate the teacher can be!!At the end of class,I FORCED myself to say Bye to him…and he didn’t even answer or acknowledge!he can’t be that deaf right..though he has admitted that sometimes he’s not able to hear when people greet him.ish..

anyway after classes,went for lunch with frens..and now..waiting for my fren to finish his report..then dunno do what.go home lo..haih,what a boring day.and its the last day of uni b4 chinese new year..gonna miss my frens..though i am really really looking forward to celebrating with my family.yay…can see my baby cousin…maybe she start talking oredi..

had only 2 classes today..Fluid Mechanics and Math1. Math..as usual,was terrible.I can’t believe how unconsiderate the teacher can be!!At the end of class,I FORCED myself to say Bye to him…and he didn’t even answer or acknowledge!he can’t be that deaf right..though he has admitted that sometimes he’s not able to hear when people greet him.ish..

anyway after classes,went for lunch with frens..and now..waiting for my fren to finish his report..then dunno do what.go home lo..haih,what a boring day.and its the last day of uni b4 chinese new year..gonna miss my frens..though i am really really looking forward to celebrating with my family.yay…can see my baby cousin…maybe she start talking oredi..

classes were ok today…but Materials class was BORING!!!the teacher repeated all the stuff he taught last week..i dun know why…

teman-ed Karen to her Drama Club meeting..and i plan to join(maybe)…bcos she said I dun have to necessarily ACT even if i’m in the drama club.actually the thing that attracted me the most was that they were gonna put on plays for kids and old folks throughout the year…and i so wanna see their(kids and old folks) happy faces…and spend time with them…seriously,i think they must be very sad…not having people they can talk to..and spend time with.if i could have my way…i would want to know each and every one of them..and love them as my own family.

still worrying about my designing project.we got SOME current today,and it turns out that we haven’t been getting current all this while bcos some LAB ASSISTANT who is very LC taught us the wrong thing..thus causing us to lose important results and precious time.anyway..we tested the potatoes today..10 of them altogether..looked pretty funny,but oh well,in this project,appearance doesnt really matter as long as we get the car MOVING.it was fun..testing out the stuff,brainstorming together..

was supposed to go watch a hip hop dance performance after class..but i was more interested in discussing the project..bcos that person was gonna go home soon…(saddening)…another day has passed.oh he wore my favourite shirt todAY!!!!hahahahaha…when i saw,i was trying to act very very normal..like "oh hi.."..but inside,i was so so happy!!i was actually wondering when was the next time he was gonna wear that shirt…and he wore it today!!muahahaha..happy day.when he wears this shirt..can see his ‘little rats’..and i don’t mean tummy or huge stomach or whatever it is u r thinking(to meiling)..i meant his biceps.he doesnt HAVE a tummy…hhahaha..

haih..meiling is gonna leave soon…there’s nothing much to say to her before she goes…but there’s jus this feeling…nostalgic..

ok thats all for today..thanks for dropping by…seems like ur interested in my life..

classes were boring today..nothing much..felt so lazy!worried about our bio car..hmm must remember to buy 5 potatoes tonight..why do we need so many potatoes to generate that little amount of energy??then how can the car move when it has to carry 10 potatoes???ish..mind boggling.

anyway watched the mtv that that person gave me again..wah so sweet la…this is the 4th time im watching it and i still feel sad whenever its over.it tells of this girl who goes blind and its kinda the guy’s fault..so he anonymously donates his eyes to her..so that SHE can see..and HE goes blind.and she didnt find out until a few months/years/whatever later..when she saw him at a place where they used to go to together.but of cos he didnt know she was there cos he was BLIND!and she didnt go and talk to him or anything..jus stood there crying.and yes..of cos u know,this story would not have been possible..since ppl don’t take organs or EYES from LIVE humans..but nevertheless,it still touches me.i don’t wish that that person would donate his eyes to me..haha but i wish that if ever i needed him…he’d be there.

hmm u know what irritates me about guys??they dun wanna use umbrellas when they have to!!why not??i mean ya…sure it’s not AS COOL AS walking in the rain…but still!!!!!you’d rather fall sick than being UNcool???ish…..guys.i dun want that person sick…it doesnt matter if he’s uncool.

oh ya..after i asked him to use the umbrella..he said its not raining that heavily..but i thought maybe he would..since i asked him to…so after he walked away..i went upstairs..and looked down to see if he did…and HE DIDN’T!!donkey……haih…hmm it’ll be so sweet if we could share an umbrella..hahaha..jus kidding..but seriously,it’ll be sweet.

after all my frens went home,i wanted to go to the library,but i realised i couldn’t,cos i’m carrying this HUGE T SQUARE…which is exactly 60 cms long(that person helped me buy it)..and which would never fit into the library locker.so went to the cafeteria..and the collge orchestra was there playing nice nice songs..and i started eating my jagung which i kept since morning(no it wasn’t rotten yet)..and wanted to do statics..but no mood..with such relaxing music being played right next to me..and i started thinking of being in UK…and whether that person reached home drenched..

am now in The Web…listening to songs..feeling tired and sleepy…wishing i wasnt alone yet again.

ish..that instructor was supposed to come fetch me at 9…and she came at 10!its unbelievable how UNpunctual some people can be..jus irritates me.it won’t matter so much if i dun have to WAIT..but i had to.anyway i dun know what was wrong with me today. i did the 3 point turn and parking fine..but when i came to the slope part,i couldn’t do it!well actually it was only once out of 4/5 times..but still,it was embarassing enough!anyway after everything,i was told that i can now sit for the exam.dun know when is that,since there’s uni and everything.

came back,took a bath(i needed it),took a nap.as i was about to fall asleep,i received a phone call..in fact i received 5 phone calls throughout my nap time.but those other calls dun matter so much.hahaha..i was so happy(tried to control) when i picked up the phone..anyway that person asked me some questions..bla bla bla…and i felt so warm inside..hahaha..cos that person actually cared!this was the first time that person phoned me..before this,it was all just sms..notice that i’ve been referring to that person as ‘that person’ and i wil continue to refer to that person as ‘that person’ till hopefully 4 years later.

^^

i cant wait for tomorrow to come..

hmm gonna go study statics soon..now listening to Il Divo..they are great!

had classes today though it’s a saturday,replacement for CNY,though i dunno why it only applies for Engineering and not Alevels,SAM,or any other courses in taylors.anyway it was ok…had statics,was blurry,tried my best,and at the end of the 2 LONG hours, my lecturer said "dun worry too much if you cannot understand this part,some ppl find it hard to get it,it is one of the hardest parts in statics." and i’m thinking,’i've been blur since the first day of statics!!when do we get to the easier parts??’ and then he says "if u still dun understand,dun give up".

Nike,Just Do it. Statics,Never Give Up,You’ll Get It Sooner or LATER.

Anyway, listened to ‘God bless the Broken Road’ by Rascal Flatts with Karen(my classmate) and was melting inside…can’t wait till someone sings that song to me..hahaha!it’s jus so sweeeeeettt!!so after that, my fren fetched me home, and it was a nice ride to the Kelana jaya station..then went home,took a nap,went for driving lesson.

here comes the not so nice part.after the lesson,and after some ppl complimenting me during the lesson(not my instructor)..my blur blur blur instructor told me that i could have gone for the trial exam b4 this..and i was like…OK!!!YOU DIDNT TELL ME THAT!!!!YOU TOLD ME I HAVEN’T FINISHED LEARNING!!!YOU WASTED MY MONEY!!!!YOU WASTED MY TIME!!!YOU WASTED MY PHONE BILL!!!YOU YOU YOU!!!ISH!!!!!!!!bcos of her blurness,i had to take 11 hours of lesson instead of 9!!arghhhhh…wasted time.

will be going for trial exam tomoro…haih..since she only mentioned it to me TODAY!!..hope it’s not too boring there…haih…….

i miss…….^^

engineering is fine..in fact it is quite fun compared to SAM programme.but the lecturers and the classmates are worlds apart from what i got during SAM.today..i had Maths..and my teacher was Mr Chow..and his nickname is ‘min chow chow’.Direct translation:face smelly smelly.Meaning:his face is always ‘black’.his way of teaching is very different from Ms Christine..and he is very ‘cold’ towards his students..unlike ms christine.as i sat in class listening to him talking today..i realised how much i miss S7..and how hard i’ve been trying to let go..of my frens,of my lecturers.

when i bump into my SAM lecturers in college,i feel like hugging them and asking them to save me from the ‘cold’ lecturers i have now.i miss them so much!!!

i really thank God that some of my former classmates are still in the same class as me now..but there are those who i won’t be able to meet for a very long time.i have one fren who will be leaving for australia on the 14th of february.she’s one of those ppl who can say things that make me laugh till i can’t stop,one of those who actually care to read my blog,one of those who would never betray a fren,someone who is smart yet humble.she is my good fren.though she hasn’t left for aus yet…i miss her already.and i wonder when is the next time i would be able to see her after she leaves for aus.am i gonna lose this fren?i dun wanna lose yet another fren jus bcos of the distance between us, like how i have lost some good frens.i really hope that we would still keep in touch..but its hard to say when we’re continents apart and doing totally different things.I DUN WANNA LOSE THIS FREN!!!!

it’s hard not to feel sad when everywhere i go in the college,i’m reminded about the times my frens and i shared together as a class.those times can never be replaced.

i have never really treasured my frens till now.now,i really treasure each and every one of my frens.i think many ppl have noticed the difference between the old and the new me.i never used to talk to ppl i’m not close to..never tried to even get closer to them.now,i trust ppl more,and i can talk to a person whom i’ve only known for one day like i’ve known that person for years.i try my best to help ALL my frens whenever they need my help.i dun look down on ppl.whenever there’s anyone who wants to know me better,i let them.and i get to know them better too.i care very much more abt my frens..and actually let them know when i miss them..

the changed me is a very much happier person..for now i realise the importance of friendship..why did it take me that long?a bit too late..my fren is leaving soon.

and the new me is always smiling..i jus realised that yesterday.i even smile when i’m super irritated..haha..funny right?but its true..try it.when u r sad..just force urself to smile..and u’ll find that u won’t feel so sad anymore.results guaranteed..