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27 days left.Just 27 days before I leave everything I have here and fly to the UK to continue on my ‘quest’ to becoming an engineer.There are so many people I want to meet before I leave, but it seems like everyone is so busy.We(engineers-to-be) in Taylor’s seem to be the only ones who are free and can rot at home.

Got my visa yesterday.25TH AUGUST 2006.Everybody remember this date.No,not because I got my visa on that day, but because of something else which I shall not announce to the world right now.Hahaha,I can be so irritating at times.LOL.

Anyway, since I do not know what else to blog about,and since SOMEONE has updated her blog and I haven’t,I shall stand up to the challenge of explaining why I want to be an engineer. Not only an engineer, but a mechanical engineer.

Point 1: Why I want to be a MECHANICAL ENGINEER

So many people have disagreed with me from the moment I decided to become an engineer. In the beginning, I wanted to be a chemical engineer. THEN….someone who loves to use the phrase "I DON’T THINK YOU CAN GET A20" came along and crushed my dreams of having anything whatsoever to do with chemistry.And someone else who came along taught me to love physics. No longer was Physics my dreaded subject like in Form 4 and 5. It was the subject I looked forward to the most, and all the technical stuff started to make sense to me.

POINT 2: Why I still want to be a MECHANICAL ENGINEER

One thing I hate the most in life is stereotyping. I HATE IT . What is wrong with these people???? I absolutely see nothing wrong in a girl becoming a mechanical engineer. I don’t like it when people ask me "Why did you pick this course??Most girls don’t do this kinda things." Yeah, you are right. MOST girls. NOT ALL. Swtswtswt. And when I answer "Because I’m very interested in mechanical stuff", they look at me like I said I’m a Martian on a mission to destroy planet Earth. And the worse was another SOMEONE kept insisting that I should change my course. He said since I have only finished my first year, I should transfer to either chemical engineering or electrical and electronics. HALLO UNCLE! WHY SHOULD I TRANSFER IF I LIKE MECHANICAL LEH?? IT’S NOT AGAINST THE LAW FOR A GIRL TO BE A MECHANICAL ENGINEER OK????? AND THAT IS MY CHOICE LA! WHY YOU SO AGAINST IT? He said that there was this girl he knows who is a mechanical engineer and she is very very stubborn and ‘chou lou’(rough). HALLO UNCLEEEEEEEE…NOT EVERYONE IS LIKE THAT OK??? I KNOW WHEN TO BE A GIRL AND WHEN TO BE A (NO LAH, NOT GUY) GIRL WHO DOES ROUGH WORK. I’ve been sort of a tomboy ever since I was in primary. Anybody noticed me being even more tomboy-ish since I started Mechanical Engineering? In fact I think I became even more girlish in a way.

POINT 3: Can people stop minding other people’s business so much??

By saying this I don’t mean that you don’t care about your family and friends. What I mean is, why do you wanna care so much about something that is never ever gonna affect you at any point of your life????? Like this morning, SOMEONE told me that Siti Nurhaliza’s wedding was supposed to have a horse-drawn carriage or something like that, but in the end, it was cancelled. The way she said it was as if it was Armageddon or something ya know. And I was like………..????????  So what??????? Does that make her less of a celebrity or something? Or from now on you never wanna see her face ever again because she cancelled the horses at HER wedding???? Sigh sigh sigh. I love minding my own business while caring very much for the people around me at the same time. So I don’t have time and neither do I want to listen to all this nonsense which has nothing to do with me.

Back to the point. When I said I wanted to do everything locally in Nottingham, people disagreed. When I said I wanted to go to Monash, other people disagreed. When I said I wanted to go to Birmingham, MORE people disagreed. And then I realised, I can never make the whole world happy. Anyway it is my life, and whatever happens to me in the future is my responsibility. What people think about me doesn’t matter so much to me anymore. Who gave them the right to say what is right and what is wrong? As long as I am happy, I’ll just go ahead. At least if anything undesirable happens, it wasn’t because I listened to some hee-haw who likes telling me what to do.

DONE. I feel so nice. Have a nice day everyone!!

Okay.Went back to Seremban last Saturday,it was nice. Had to drive home from there for the first time,was quite nervous, but well,I’m home ,I’m safe. After that went to PC fair for the 2nd time ( I went there on Friday as well) and bought a L100 laptop with Tatlee. Hehe…it’s blue. Very nice very nice. Then we went to Mandarin Oriental for the Birmingham Pre-departure talk by Daya Evans. Then went for dinner with Alvin,KimYoong and Wilken at Madam Kwan. Haha when the food came,everyone suddenly became so quiet. All quietly eating. So I guess I can say the food was delicious ..haha.

Another pre-departure briefing today.Then went for bowling.Then went back to Taylor’s to see Mushtak(and get ‘killed’).I was so nervous that I had to go get a Slurpee to calm down. So I went back to Taylor’s and sat down at the garden. As I was innocently sitting down there slurping my Slurpee, this couple came and sat down right next to me.

I was seriously contemplating moving to another bench because it just doesn’t feel right when there’s this couple saying mushy mushy stuff to each other and then the guy asking the girl "Why were you so sensitive just now when…bla bla bla" . I was so scared they were gonna start arguing!

Anyway thank goodness after awhile they moved to the next bench so I wouldn’t be able to hear their conversation. So they continued sitting very very close to each other,and I don’t know and don’t want to know what they did..until suddenly I heard a lady’s voice asking "What are you two doing??! Huh? *pause* Tell me, what are the two of you trying to do? I’m not saying that it’s wrong but this is not the appropriate place right??" Well I wasn’t looking, but I gather they were a tad too close? Or maybe their lips were. Haha well I don’t know..but they weren’t the only ones who ‘kena’. There was another couple. That one worse. Kena from Mrs. Mary Ng herself. Muahaha..I so wanted to laugh,but cannot ler..they would have taken the longkang cover and hit me.

At times like this, I LOVE BEING SINGLE.

Well, exams are over.I was so happily enjoying my temporary freedom that I didn’t even feel like lifting a finger to blog until today. Maybe one of the reasons was because I wasn’t truly happy due to some stuffs that happened. Let me just go through the main highlights of the past week ,and then I’ll tell you why I wasn’t happy ,ok ok? OK.

After the exams, Satish sang his way out of the exam hall.Very random, but yeah. He did.

Next day, wanted to go out with the CE people, but all couldn’t make it. So managed to get most of my ex-classmates in Monash to meet up with ChengYee,TatLee,KahSim and I at 1Utama. SOMEONE said I wasn’t a good organiser because I didn’t inform them earlier. Ish. He probably won’t be reading this. Hahaha.

Next day, went to Mid Valley with KahSim and YingZhen. Bought 2 tops and a pair of jeans. Had a nice chat with KS at Starbucks while it rained elephants and rhinos. Queued up for HALF AN HOUR to buy KTM tickets home.

I’m bored. Anyway the most recent, I went to Petaling Street with QiGuang yesterday and then it started raining elephants and rhinos AGAIN,so we took the LRT to KLCC. Drooled over all the expensive clothings, ate Auntie Anne’s, gawked at huge plasma TVs and hi-fi stereos, went hunting for Baskin Robbins,(there weren’t any BaskinRobbins outlet there),drooled on Famous Amos cookies,went home.

ANYWAY ANYWAY, let me tell you why I wasn’t happy!!Finally I’m here. As some of you may know, I am a person who does not hold back when it comes to caring for others. When someone is my friend, I would never ever think of backstabbing that person,I would try my best to help them if they need my help, I feel sad whenever they are sad, and so on and so forth. The point is, when I call you a friend, it means that you are my friend. I wouldn’t envy you for something good that has happened to you, I wouldn’t want you to envy me either. Something good happens, we all celebrate it together. Everyone’s happy. Simple. No evil thoughts, no green-eyed monster.

But this year, I have met some people who do not see things the way I see them. And it really hurts me when someone whom I called ‘a friend’ would do such things to me. It seriously hurts. So whenever I meet such people, I try my best to hold back. I tell myself to be more careful when I talk to them , to not care so much about them. But I’m not happy! Because this isn’t my true nature!

Why would a friend want to snap at you whenever you speak? And if he/she does that to you all the time, is he/she still considered a true friend? Why are there people in the world who are so unhappy with everything that other people do? Why do they think that there are no true friends in the world? They think that everything is complicated, when everything is JUST SO SIMPLE. Why can’t we just care and love our friends unconditionally?? Is that really so difficult? Sigh sigh sigh sigh.

Some people who read this might think I’m faking it. But no. I’m not. This is me. I don’t mind people knowing me inside out. I’m just simple Kimberly. I don’t hold back when I love and care about someone. And I make sure that they know it. How I wish that all who read this would be able to understand what I mean, and that they too would think the same way I do.

To all who agree with me, please leave a comment..HAVE A NICE DAY FOLKS!=)