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As some of you might have known, I was required to attend a 3-day teambuilding course in Cumbria, Coniston. To tell you the truth, I didn’t really enjoy myself as much as I had wanted to there. Not that the place or the people weren’t nice, but because the activities that we had to do were so tiring and my muscles were hurting and I got blisters on my feet and bruises everywhere(even on my finger!). I fell into the lake 4 times, thankfully it isn’t November yet. Otherwise I would have freezed myself to death,falling in 4 times, haha. My team members were great. Great great people. 4 guys and 2 girls including myself. Hehehe, for those who have been waiting to see some good-looking ‘guai lous’, I shall load my team members’ photo and you can judge for yourself.

And as MOST of you know, my birthday was yesterday. The day before my birthday, PK,WY,TL and JJ had a surprise birthday party for me. I can tell you, I was never so surprised in my entire life. Haha. The food was nice,TatLee cooked murtabak,WanYin made a vegetable dish, and PeiKuan boiled chicken vege soup. And they also gave me a scarf, and I like it so so much!! Anyway Aunty Sheila(the lady from church whom I am closest to) invited me over for dinner yesterday to celebrate my birthday. It was very yummy. Wish I had birthdays every month. Hahaha. And guess what. She MADE me a scarf. Haha what a coincidence, right? I like it so much too. Imagine how happy I was to receive a hand-made scarf. It means a lot to me.

I’m sleepy and it is 11.09 pm. Ya ya, I know you guys can’t wait to see my team members’ photo now. Maybe some of you skipped the whole post and went straight for the photo. Haha. Ok I shall stop here. Night everyone!

It’s funny how much a person can love someone. However I don’t think that many can give unconditional love. Unconditional love is one where the person does not expect to be loved in return, but to love the other under all circumstances with unchanging love. I know I can’t. When I love someone, I give that person my all and hope that my love is returned. And when it isn’t, I feel sad and heartbroken. I guess this is the norm. Everyone feels that way in this kind of situation. But what amazes me most is the love that God has for us. And I remind myself of the verse " We love Him, because He first loved us ". It touches my heart whenever I read that verse, because God is the only One who can give us unconditional love. We were born not loving God, because we are born sinners. And even when we know God, more often than not, we just remember Him on Sunday mornings when we go to church. But through all these, God has loved us all the time. Not once did His love for us fade, nor did He give up on us. How then can we ignore such unconditional love?

As I said, I can’t give unconditional love. But I am trying my best to love a person with all my heart even though there is little return. I don’t know how long I can wait. I know that person is trying his best to change for me. The fact that he is willing to change for me shows that he loves me too. I know that. But is his love enough for us to last? Definitely not if it remains like this. All I can do is to hope that I am able to wait until he loves me as much as I love him. Otherwise I wouldn’t want to waste his time, and I wouldn’t want to waste my time and tears on him anymore.